Saturday, November 27, 2010

Preparing for the holidays

Well, it has been a busy week at the Hahn house.  Preparing the house for Christmas and bringing in the holiday with cheer and happiness.  Two trees are up and decorated working on the backroom tree and hopefully will get more accomplished before the 18th of December when Hahn-A-Days is happening.  That is a time when family and friends pop in for a bit to visit and add to the Christmas Spirit in our home.  I can't wait for it always is so nice to see family and friends!!

Zack is doing fair at school.  He has had a few rough days and the counselor called me worried about a comment he made to her.  He told her that once he is kicked out of this school, we will force him to go to Arkansas and live with his Mom.  That is so untrue, we have never told him that and where he came up with that comment we don't know.  We want him to live with us, to grow with us and most of all to be happy and safe.  He is such a special little boy who misses his Mom a lot, he knows if he stayed with her he would not be happy he has told us that...but that does not take away his pain of missing his Mom.  She is still writing letters, but we do not read them to him because he has had some emotional break downs and we do not want him to revert to being angry as he was last year.  It is tough, I can't ever imagine that feeling of being left behind and not seeing your Mom for almost two years.  She doesn't call at all and it is probably for the best...he has overcome a lot since she left and he has a long way to go. 

The Special Education Coordinator from Warren County had a meeting with us and she suggested we put Zack in a new school come January 2011.  It is for his speech and social behavior and deals with Autisum on a more extreme measure.  The school he is in right now is mostly for behavior issue children and doesn't focus on the Autistic child.  With the comment that he made to Ms. Heather, we are unsure if it would be a wise move to send him to the new school or not.  I feel it would be very very good for his speech and social but would he feel he failed at the school he is in right now?  Greg wants to wait until the fall next but I feel it would be more helpful this year...like I said it is a hard decision to make and what will be best for Zack.  Keep Zack and us in your prayers guiding us the right way...


Well I received a call from a friend telling me that she is worried about Jessica for she had text messaged her wishing her a happy holiday.  Chris (the man Jessica left with) called this friend back letting her know that he has no clue where Jessica is and if she would happen to hear from her, tell her to get with him about her junk.  WOW...what is going on, where is she at?  Is she back in Ohio?  Will she just show up at the house unexpectedly?  Did she have other children?  So many unanswered questions and so little information to go on.  I text messaged her old phone number but no call from the creep telling me he doesn't know where she is.  Why is this going on?  Where is she?  Is she okay?  I sure hope so but I don't want her around the kids...

On a lighter note...Christmas is only four weeks away...hope you are finding the Spirit within your heart to share with others.  It is going to be a glorious time in our lives...

Jesus is the reason for this glorious time!!  Celebrate His Birth...

Hugs!!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Winter is close upon us...

October is past and November is upon us.  The cold wind has been blowing today with rain and a threat of "snow showers" tomorrow when we wake up.  I am not sure if I am ready for that but I guess I best get there. 

Tonight while working with Z-man on getting his toys picked up in his room (there was not a place that did not have a Lego on the floor) he talked about the cold weather and when could we expect snow so Santa could come.  I just laughed and said it wasn't Christmas yet we had to have Thanksgiving first and then we would work towards Christmas and Santa.  He didn't seem to understand that and said he wanted it to be Christmas because his Mom might come to visit.  That hit me like a ton of bricks.  I know it has to be so hard on this little boy missing his Mom like he does but it came out of no where and really set me to thinking.  This child has missed one Christmas without his Mom and doesn't realize he will probably miss more...especially this year.  How do I tell him that?  How do I explain it?  So far we have always tried to be truthful and up front with what happened and try to explain what we feel about it all and let him talk out his feelings.  He knows she left with her boyfriend, Chris and that Chris was abusive and not a very nice man.  He knows she lives in Arkansas which is far away from Ohio and takes at least a day to get here.  He also knows that she has been writing letters (3 to date) and gets to read each one.  But that doesn't help me to explain to him why she won't make it this year for a very important holiday in his life. 

I lifted this up in prayer to GOD and asked Him to help me find the right words.  I feel in my heart that God just wants me to tell him the truth and guide him with love and understanding and give him all I can and that will help Z-man through this tough time.  We shall see what the holiday brings but I hope it is not disappointment to Z-man or the girls.

We had our parent-teachers meeting and Z-man is on the A/B Honor Roll...he is doing quite well.  We are very proud of him for he has come so far in a year.  This time last year HE was really struggling with just staying in school, now he is there all day and has a few behavior issues...but all in all he is getting better and that is what we wanted to see.  I feel he will be at this school for at least two more years, maybe longer but that is okay, they feel his needs and he feels secure and happy there.  We adore his teacher for she takes a lot of extra time with him (and the other five students) to show him and guide him for a better education.  We are truly blessed.

School pictures are in and they are adorable.  Jadden's makes her look so grown up and Zack's shows his spectacular smile and you can see the twinkle of mischief in his eyes. 

God be with you as you go through your days.  Remember to lean on HIM for HE is there for us...we are His children and like a good Father, He is willing to love us and guide us to the what is best for us.  We must be open to hear His calling!