This year our Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's was so much more love filled and calmer than last year. We celebrated Jesus' birth and we enjoyed our family getting together for the first time in quite a while. Having my oldest son and grandson at the house is beyond words. I was completely thrilled to have them and cherish the pictures I have of them. I pray that we will stay close and not go so long seeing each other again. Tabby, Martin and the girls, Trina, Jeff and the girls, Jake, Britt and their children, my Dad, my sister Trish and her friend Karl and his daughter and Trish's boys were here. What a glorious time together. Our gift to our children this year was giving them their pictures as they were growing up. It took a lot of work and with Greg's help it was accomplished. I think each one of our children enjoyed their walk down memory lane. It truly was a special time and GOD made it all possible.
Zack did pretty good this year too with the holiday celebrations and all the excitement leading up to the "big" day when "Santa" arrived. He had a few rough days at school but he worked through them. He was a tad bit disappointed that he did not get an X-Box 360 but the Wii is okay for second best. He loves Legos and received quite a few of them too. If he could build a huge city in his room of Legos, he would. Maybe one day he will. Zack talked a lot about his Mom (which broke my heart) and told of one Christmas when they were at their apartment. He said that he got his Scooby Do dog and he knew his Mom got it for him even though she said Santa gave it to him...he said he knew it was his Mom. He said he misses her a lot and hopes one day she will come to visit. I know he has to miss her but right now his heart is still hurting from the pain and agony that she put him and his sisters through that I fear it would bring back the nightmares, the bad behavior and the fear of her taking him away. I laid it at GOD's feet and know that GOD will guide me and show me the way for Zack. I trust totally in GOD's love and care. HE and only HE knows exactly what those children went through and HE and only HE knows where they are best at. Yes, one day a visit would be nice, I miss my daughter and want to know she is okay, but right now is not a good time, I think the children and us need to heal. She did send a short message to the kids at Christmas via my phone/text messaging. Just saying tell the kids Merry Christmas. Oh well...at least she thought of them.
Greg and I have been battling bronchitis and it just doesn't want to go away. Taking meds to clear it up but I think I will have to have another round of antibiotics and Greg's cough is not getting any better. It worries me greatly. For those of you who didn't know it, Greg had a heart attack in 2007, it was a mild one requiring a week's stay in the Cardiac Care Unit and a stint placed in his heart to open a severe blockage. This past September he went to the heart doctor appointment (one the doctor made and sent paperwork to confirm the appointment) and when Greg arrived at the doctor's office, the receptionist told him that he didn't have an appointment and he would have to reschedule. He was pretty upset and has not rescheduled and is no longer taking his heart meds (which he said were maintenance and not preventative). I worry about him and pray that he will go to a new heart doctor to be checked out and get back on the meds that are necessary in his life. He says we can't afford them. I disagree, we will do without other things if that is why he quit taking them. Sometimes he can be so frustrating but I love him even more.
Have you ever watched a movie or show that touched your life? Made you think? Have you step back from yourself and look at how you live, how you act, how you treat others? I watched that type of movie the other night. Yes, it is a Christian based movie and was very well put together. "Facing the Giant" doesn't have any big stars in it, it is not a movie that was shown on the "big screen" or had huge reviews but it should have! It is excellent and if I could suggest that you watch it please do. It is well worth it! There is one part in the movie that has me thinking that I need to do more. It is the comment made about "Preparing your fields while waiting for the rains to come." It touched me in a way that I am rethinking how I do things and what I can do more for Zack and Greg and all of my family to make things better in their lives through GOD. A very good movie, please take a moment to watch it.
I will sign off for now. I pray daily for all of my family and friends. I know prayers are answered by GOD not always how we wish them to be but HE does answer all prayers in HIS time. Patience is something that doesn't come easy for me, but I am learning to lean on GOD and let HIM show me the way, the light and the glory!!
God bless you!!
