October is past and November is upon us. The cold wind has been blowing today with rain and a threat of "snow showers" tomorrow when we wake up. I am not sure if I am ready for that but I guess I best get there.
Tonight while working with Z-man on getting his toys picked up in his room (there was not a place that did not have a Lego on the floor) he talked about the cold weather and when could we expect snow so Santa could come. I just laughed and said it wasn't Christmas yet we had to have Thanksgiving first and then we would work towards Christmas and Santa. He didn't seem to understand that and said he wanted it to be Christmas because his Mom might come to visit. That hit me like a ton of bricks. I know it has to be so hard on this little boy missing his Mom like he does but it came out of no where and really set me to thinking. This child has missed one Christmas without his Mom and doesn't realize he will probably miss more...especially this year. How do I tell him that? How do I explain it? So far we have always tried to be truthful and up front with what happened and try to explain what we feel about it all and let him talk out his feelings. He knows she left with her boyfriend, Chris and that Chris was abusive and not a very nice man. He knows she lives in Arkansas which is far away from Ohio and takes at least a day to get here. He also knows that she has been writing letters (3 to date) and gets to read each one. But that doesn't help me to explain to him why she won't make it this year for a very important holiday in his life.
I lifted this up in prayer to GOD and asked Him to help me find the right words. I feel in my heart that God just wants me to tell him the truth and guide him with love and understanding and give him all I can and that will help Z-man through this tough time. We shall see what the holiday brings but I hope it is not disappointment to Z-man or the girls.
We had our parent-teachers meeting and Z-man is on the A/B Honor Roll...he is doing quite well. We are very proud of him for he has come so far in a year. This time last year HE was really struggling with just staying in school, now he is there all day and has a few behavior issues...but all in all he is getting better and that is what we wanted to see. I feel he will be at this school for at least two more years, maybe longer but that is okay, they feel his needs and he feels secure and happy there. We adore his teacher for she takes a lot of extra time with him (and the other five students) to show him and guide him for a better education. We are truly blessed.
School pictures are in and they are adorable. Jadden's makes her look so grown up and Zack's shows his spectacular smile and you can see the twinkle of mischief in his eyes.
God be with you as you go through your days. Remember to lean on HIM for HE is there for us...we are His children and like a good Father, He is willing to love us and guide us to the what is best for us. We must be open to hear His calling!
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